March 24, 2017
I keep thinking about you and I know exactly why, but for some reason I feel like I need to convince myself that that’s what I actually feel for you.
How would I get to know you? How do I find a reason to spend time with you? How do I even start a conversation with you? With everyone else, it’s so, so easy; meeting new people, talking on a daily basis, meaningful or not. But more often than not, I find myself starting a conversation with you in my head and wondering the entire time when something will go south–which makes me fear of ruining something before it’s even begun.
I have the tendency to chase away things I most care about. And I either need reassurance or I just need to go ahead and do it already because, for all I know, you could be thinking the exact same thing.