August 30, 2017
Just how far have I come? A year later and I honestly couldn’t tell you. I started this blog sometime spring of 2016, but didn’t post on it until the beginning of August. I’ve had my heart broken several times, had my trust betrayed more than I’d like to say, lost close friends and relationships built on false premise, and I’ve felt totally abandoned more than I’ve felt safe in the company of loved ones.
But I’ve never wished I had a different life.
Because in another life, I wouldn’t have these dreams; I wouldn’t even know about them. In another life, I wouldn’t have these hardships, so I wouldn’t ever learn how to get through them. In another life, sure, maybe I would’ve been a little less miserable, but I would never have recognized what good things can come of despair.
It sucks. I’ve said it before. It really, really sucks.
But whether or not this life I’m living at this very moment is fully mine, I’m still learning how to take it by the reins and believe me, when I do, this life will be mine and no power or force of nature will have the capacity to take it from me because I will get away, I will distance myself, I will meet the world with a battle cry and live the way I damn well deserve to live. It may be a while, but just you wait and see.